Jakmar 2015

I wanna share about my first Half Marathon race experience at Jakarta Marathon 2015 , Monas, Jakarta.

Things that I’ve learned from this experience was is Personal Best is not everything since we can spend quality time with our beloved people, especially my brother. It has been a long time that we never hang out or spend time together such as; dinner, sharing our experience, thought, and feeling. I was so relieve that I have this wonderful brother in this world who really understand me, I was so happy to be his sister. BIG HUG AND KIS FROM YOUR SISTER, AA

Actually, I had a target to get PB, 2 hours to get finish, but when I ran I met my friends, Nisa and Kang Gugun,  we run together, so I forgot about my target since we could achieve it together and the most important thing was I could finish together with my beloved brother. It was kinda of sweet surprise for me. I was so happy and grateful of it.

Something in mind

Firstly, Im sorry, but may I have to stop the inktober

Im not sure about it, since it's not the final decision yet. So many things have happened to my life, recently, it have made me more difficult  to make it. Actually its only 8 days, I still have an opportunity though. Okay, at the end I just can say let's see if there's any possibility, I'll make it. 

Secondly, i decide to deactivate all social media account, FB, IG, Path. It will be 10 days trial, from 27 October until 17 November. The first day has been done. The reason why i deactivate them because i want to spend my time in good activity that will give us benefit, such as reading book, IELTS practice, or any kind of good information, care to all people surround you, especially your parents, family, and friends, and be  more grateful of your life as realize it or not sometimes social media give us tendency to compare your life with the others. i want my life in peace, mind, body, and soul.

Thirdly, my priority right now is to prepare IELTS. Today, was productive day enough for me, I finished  my report, I finished 3 week lesson of IELTS in a day. I know its not effective, but its better than nothing, I hope I gonna to finish the rest of them, 2 more weeks  lesson tomorrow, and practise and repeat again, take another online course more seriously, till finally i'm ready for the real IELTS test, both mentally, and financially in early, Desember =). In the other word, I only have a month to focus practice of IELTS Test.

and Finally, there are a lot of things to do, I have to prepare my visa for December, I hope I get Working Holiday Visa. I need to plan my trip perfectly. i want everything well prepared and run well.  I need to rearrange my life, and they all need a month to achieve it. Bismillah…

Dare to Express Our Uniqueness

I wrote this essay for GOI Peace International Foundation in 2014. It stated specifically about what I want to do in the future based on my experienced.

Okay, I hope you enjoy it :D

Dare to Express Our Uniqueness

Nowadays, more than many other times in the history of humanity, special need children more accepted than before. Since the development of recent research, give positive result about the  treatment, the government has supported to make education system in order they have an equal opportunity, and cared about public facilitation to support the mobility of their daily activity.

In spite of the world’s good news, the disabled in Indonesia is still lack of support. The government has struggled to develop education system for them, but there are still few special need schools and inclusion school which not enough for them.  There are also still lacks of public facilitation to support their mobility. The most important truth is people with disabilities are less accepted in social community in Indonesia.

Most of Indonesian still have negative perspective of disabled.  They are still believe in having disabled child is punishment from God, and underestimate their ability that they cannot do anything, and many other negative statements. The statement is unfair and against the human right. That negative paradigm will affect their education, social, cultural, and psychological skills. Every person in the world has equal opportunity to achieve their dream. We have to believe in behind their limitation, they can do many incredible things.

I was kind of person who have some negative thought of them before. That things happen was not because I hated or avoided them, it was because I didn’t understand how to dealing with them. Sometimes, our previous experience may impact how our feeling about them. Some us have been taught to avoid, glance away from, or ignore of people with disabilities. The avoidance may be because we don’t know how to act or what to say and may be afraid of making mistake.

I’m a person of faith I didn’t know what was next, but I felt God guiding me. Out of the blue, this negative perspective was faded and changed forever since I have internship program in one of national special need school for visual impairment student in Indonesia. In that school, I met a lot of disabled student with visual impairment, some of them have multi disabled such as mental retarded, autism, etc. I also interacted with student with other kind of disabilities such as; down syndrome, mental retarded, etc. I observed their behavior, how they interacted with the other people, played with friends, and learned in the class.

In spite their disabilities, I realize, there is nothing wrong with them. They just the same as other children who not have disabilities which need care, and love from us. Since that time, I felt more love and more curious about them. I realized, they are not good or bad, but they need to be acknowledged.

The most incredible moment was when I met one of low vision student who has great talent in art, but had some problem in verbal, learning, and social skill. I had to make treatment for him and I decided to do art therapy. Art therapy is one of therapy that using art material as the method since art is known as universal language.

Surprisingly, the art therapy session made an amazing result, which increased his social skill and solved learning problem. It was amazed me how art therapy did work for him. It was wonderful experience that I ever had, which finally changed my life and found my destiny. Since that moment, I finally decided want to be an art therapist.

I believe that my role as an art therapist is to help people in the world explore and express themselves authentically through art. Through this process, people may find relief from overwhelming emotions, crises or trauma. They may discover insights about themselves, increase their sense of well-being, enrich their daily lives.

There are many challenges in the future since art therapy in Indonesia still not well-developed. Although, some people underestimate in my decision to be an art therapist, I believe in my ability to accomplish many great thing during my life time. We live in one world, our idea will give important contribution to our world. Let express our unique talent!

The Power of Dream

I was so confused about my dream before, I mean I love psychology and art, so what should I do in the future? However, God showed me the way and I got the answer when I wrote an essay for GOI Peace International Foundation in 2012. I want to be an art therapist.

Okay, here’s my essay, The Power of Dream, I hope you enjoyed it

“You might not realize it when it happens, however your worst experience would be the best thing that happened to you.” Walt Disney

The statement gives clear message that if we know how to handle the failure properly, we’ll be more successful than before, but if not, we will fail. This happens because every crisis carries two elements, danger and opportunity. Therefore, no matter how difficult the circumstances, no matter how dangerous the situation, at the heart of each crisis lies a tremendous opportunity.

There so many people in the human history can success through failure. These people know the secret of finding opportunity within crisis, and they never understand the meaning of limitation. With their graceful effort, they always defy repeatedly until they realize their objective.

With the power of dream, they challenged themselves to create impossible and incredible things. More than just wishing, they combined with vision, planning, and action. They do not dream for a day, they dream all day, and they dream for a living. I believe everyone in this world has a dream, dream for a better world.

When we talk about the world, let us take a moment. Think of what happened in our world now. Can you feel it?  What do you think to make our world be the right place for living? 

As we look around at the world's problems and wish they would go away, but they stubbornly persist despite our most heartfelt desires. People starve, communities fall apart, violence thrives, families fade, and nature disappears. We continue with our lives as if nothing is wrong. However, sometimes it whispers in our, about the guilty feeling for that something has gone twisted. How did we end up here, as we know the reality does not give us any happiness?

“If you want to make the world a better place, take a look at yourself and make  

a change."

Of course we can make the world better, to create a completely new world, which full of hope. There are nothing impossible in this world since the main things that we must have is just small amount of space and strong desire to change, to better, more fulfilled life.

This should be starts from our self. Changes from simplest step that will not only make you a better person, but will also make the world a better place to live in. It is best way to realize your dream and passion.

I have a dream in my life; I want to be a psychologist who succeeds in developing artistic assessment and treatment tools for children with special need. The main reason I use art as my tools is because I love art, I love painting and I really want to combine psychology and art. Art is very helpful to help me express idea, thought, and feeling.  Study conducted at the University of Minnesota, USA shows art therapy is a great tool to encourage non-disabled children to initiate interactions with autistic children Monitoring two groups of autistic children (one younger, one older). Expressive arts therapy does not have to be used only as a treatment though. It can be used to relieve stress or tension, or it can be used as a mode of self-discovery. Many people can stand to use some sort of creative outlet.

I also want to have my own clinic, so I can implement the training and development program about creativity especially for children and adolescents. The Opportunity is to help them in increasing their creativity so that they can be more creative and innovative.

“There is no doubt that creativity is the most important human resource of all. Without creativity, there would be no progress, and we would be forever repeating the same patterns." 

Edward de Bono

I believe in  everything that comes to my life has a purpose “ God always know everything and I have to find the reasons  no matter difficult it is till I understand it.” We have the reason, the vision, the power, and the technology to create an amazing New World. Now, we have a way to bring it all together in a cohesive global movement, where ordinary people change the world by working locally and impacting globally.

Counseling Class: The Power of Dream

Yesterday , I taught counseling class in my family school, MTs. Fathussaadah. It was the first counseling class in this year. The topic of the discussion was The Power of Dream. I was so confuse to prepare teaching material before. I thought about it in a week, and finish it only in three hours, that was amazing, I mean, if we tried to finish our task,  everything would be easy. Alhamdulillah.

When I prepared for the material, I felt it  also helped myself, I mean, the information that I found in some of literatures really help me to solve my problem as  I felt that I lost my direction, forget about my dream.  As I told you before in the previous post, it’s difficult for me to focus on my goal since I have a lot of things to do, a lot of things that I want to achieve. So,  I forget of my dream anyway, to be an art therapist. 

Yup, sometimes it happen when I teach counseling or art therapy session. When I give the student the exercise in purpose to help them to express themselves. On the other hand, I also need the same therapy like they do to express myself and solve my problem. So, may be in the next session, before I give them art therapy exercise, I need to apply or try it to me first. Hohoho

Okay, here’s the picture of my students.

In the next session I will show you my essay that I sent to Goi Peace International Foundation about one of my passion, to be an art therapist :)

#Inktober Day 15

The Lotus

Lotus, every culture and religion has different perspective in giving meaning to lotus. Lotus is a symbol of purity, beauty, and eternity. Purity because the colorstill clean even it grows in the middle of mud. It also symbol of beauty as we can see how beautiful it is, we can deny it. And eternity, the flower reborn, close in every night and open in the morning, so some people agree is a symbol of rebirth .

For me, I don’t have any idea about this since I got this picture from my friend’s photo collection in her facebook without any permission. XD, Actually I told her, but she haven’t replied my comment,  after I finished painting. What I love about this picture it showed a beautiful lotus, only a lotus in picture. The focus of the flower was so perfect. That’s all.

Related to the picture, honestly to be a focus one it’s difficult for me recently. Since I had  graduated in 2013, I had to find new job, or find scholarship, etc.  I’d really like to find scholarship, but the demand at that time forced me to find a job first.  My parents really wanted me to work in  goverment ministry, while at that the same time, I had to  apply to a lot of private company, and school. I had to review my CV, made a lot of application letter, prepared for the document for government ministry application, and at the same time, I had to prepare document to go to Australia. My sister’s family moved to Australia, and there was a chance that she can bring another families member to go to Australia too. She asked me. She thought if I come with her, it easier for me to continue my study. I thought it was a great chance too, I accepted that order. but, it took a long time, more than 3 months to know the announcement. I was so in suspense at that time waiting for the announcement whether I could go or not until finally I got a job at an international school that I really wanted, Intercultural School of Bogor.  So I accepted that job without thinking twice. I also considered and remembered a possibility that I had to go to Australia, but what I need at that time was to have a job. So, I started job there, I loved my job until finally my sister told me the announcement that I could go to Australia. But my parents said that its better I stayed in Indonesia and had things to do, than I go to another country without any job. So I decided to live here.

It have been a year since that moment, and now, I can’t deny to myself that I really want to continue my master degree program in Aussie. The desire always come to my mind, but I don’t know why it was difficult for me to take any action to pursue my dream. I just ignore it. There are a lot of things to do, running and painting. I joined the community of running and painting since I broke up with my ex-boyfriend last year. By joined the community, it helped me to move on, and I even get more friends. That’s why I enjoyed it a lot.

Since my sister’s family moved to Australia, my parents felt lonely. Sometimes I felt so guilty with them that I was so busy in the weekend, seldom to stay at home and go with my friend. My mom often complained about it, I tried to explained to her, and she understand it sometimes. I know my mom was felt lonely, she missed my nephew so much. Because of the reason she often asked me to find a new one and get married. Not only me, but also my brother.  I don’t know how to say, it doesn’t mean that I don’t want to married, but I want her to know it just need process. It’s not such kind you get fruit which drop from the tree, right? On the other hand, I really want to continue my study, I think it’s the best way for me to change my life to have a better future. My mom understand that condition, she said it’s up to me whether I continue my study first or married first. But its not easy things to do for me. That two words, to continue my study and married, scared me so much in this stage. Wish God always help me to find the way to achieve them. Please, God make it easier .

Oke, related to my goal, now I realize that I have to do a lot of activities which support me to pursue my goal, so it was difficult for me to focus and pick more important priority. So, I realize that I need to be more focus, since now I have to do activity which can help me to pursue my dream . I need to sacrifice the other activity which not related to my goal, even I really like them very much. I have to be focus, I really want to continue my study. I pray the best for my future and for anything such love stuff, I always pray the best for them. Wish God always find me the way to achieve it.

Random Post

Yesterday’s doodles

I tried to draw Seohyun SNSD, but it was difficult XD and made fashion design sketch, but it still look a like robot. Yeah, may be I still need practice and practice

#Inktober Day 14

Something About Us

It might not be  the right time

I might not be the right one

But there’s something about us I want to say

Cause there’s something between us anyway

Ps: I got this picture and its caption from my senior's IG, Kholid Wakhid.

#Inktober Day 13

Happy Birthday Ori, Wish you all the best ya!!!!

My Book

Hello guys, how are you? A day didn’t post here, it feel like a year XD. Okay, now, I will share some books  that I read. It had been a long time I seldom read a book, until finally I found a book that I wanted to read. It was such kind of mood booster. Now, however,  I read at least a book in a week, yeah, most of them.

Reading book really help me to improve my vocabulary in English, in other words, it improved my writing skill too both Bahasa and English. I really need to improve my English skill, both speaking and writing. Another advantages is, it really help me to be more productive, I mean I can spend my day in positive activity, not only play with my phone, but also doing nothing.

Okay, here the books:

Tiger’s Eyes

It’s an old book which tell about the story of a teenager named Davey as she undergo a lot of changes since her father’s death. It’s not easy adapting to new situation, which full of adversity.

In my opinion, the story was simple yet full of meaningful lesson about early teenager’s life. It was revealed my 13 spirit to show up while was reading this book page by page. Actually, this book is recommended for teenager who still in process to recognize them self.

One lesson that I get from this book is, we just realize that they special after we lost them. Life is so precious as we only live once, so let’s express care to our beloved people since we’ll never know what will be happen in the future.

Me Talk Pretty One Day 

Full of struggle to finish this book even it’s kind of comedy book. I just couldn’t  find which part to laught at, the funny part. As I didn’t really know the culture of American, the book was difficult to read. Another reason was my English problem XD. Although it wasn’t easy, I tried my best to finish it, I just so curious about it.

Generally, the story is about the life of Davey Ramsey who attempts to find her tlent for the rest of life. She let her life flows like a water, let destiny decides her life, until finally she find somethingthat she wanted, something she really good at, approximately at age 40’s.

Things that I’ve learned from this book is between we discover our destiny and discovered by destiny, I choose both of them. Let us decide our goal, do the best as we can to achieve it, and finally let destiny decides the best for us.

Harry Potter

Absolutely, I don’t want to tell you the summary of this book. I believe you know the story better than me. The Fact is  I already watch the movie of Harry Potter 1-7 a thousand times, I read the novel both Indonesian and English version, but you know what? I still curious about this book, the more I read this book, the more I fall in love with this book

What I want to tell you is I just amazed by how JK. Rowling, the author of this book, makes the story feel alive. She can attracts the reader’s attention, everyone who read this book, be a part of the story, be a part of her imagination. I just could finish the half of the book in a day.  What a good book it is!

Beasiswa Lima Menara

I just could finish the book in a day! Can you believe it? Actually, it’s not the book itself  was thick, but there are many illustration in this book. Okay,  theory was done, and what I should do next is TAKE ACTION!!!!!!!! Scream to my self!! The voice of mind which never stop screaming until I can achieve it,  wish God always help me to make it true as soon as possible, sooner better :D

Chicken Soup for  Pet Lover Soul

Although I’m not pet lover, I enjoy this book so much, though it still not finish yet. It inspired me to have a new one J

Agar Bidadari Cemburu Padamu

I got this book from my friend, Ryan Hidayat

To be honest, I have a critical testimony for this book. In my opinion, the way of the author described and explained  the content little bit confusing, especially the language  that he used which not really systematic and consistent. So, it took a lot of time for me to really understand what its mean.

However, it was a good book which tell a lot of thing about women stuff from Islamic perspective. Things that I’ve learned from this book is it gave me new perspective and knowledge about how to be a good woman in Muslim.  

 Thanks Ryan for the book

Change Your Heart

I read this book for months. First time when I found it in my house, I was so curious about it. Although, what I expected about this book was totally different with the content, but I enjoyed it very much. I just like the way the author explained about step by step to be a good Muslim in many aspect of life in easy and beautiful way.  How to be a good Muslim with a health body, mind, and soul. What I love about this book is the content not only the theory, but also  It gave us practical step that we can follow. Moreover, this book also share many of inspiring story from many Muslim all over the globe which is the most favorite part . Like the previous book, this book gave me new perspective and knowledge about how to be a good woman Muslim, the history of Prophet  Muhammad SAW, how to maintain a good life, and etc. This book is recommended for every Muslim, especially for the one who need guidance to achieve the Kindness of All Kindness.

 At the end , Thanks for accompany me everywhere and every time, in the commuter, angkot, snack, and lunch time, while waiting for something and Wednesday’s trip