Selasa, 31 Oktober 2017

The Sacred journey of Pregnancy

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The main theme for final project is pregnancy, I chose this theme since it related to my experience. I decided to make a painting of mother and son. After i had finished the painting, i decorated it with collage by using unused fabric to get the 3 Dimension effect and more dramatic.

Everyone has their own different unique stories of pregnancy.  For me, becoming a mother to-be is one of the most transformation experience of my life when another phase of woman’s spiritual journey begins. A spiritual journey to welcome a child into the world. It is a journey of self-discovery, trust and faith. It's an intuitive process that requires a woman to experience soul surfing journey when she has the opportunity to access the inner spirit, inner wisdom and inner strength, her connection with all women and her divine nature – all essential prerequisites for mothering

The future destiny of the child is always the work of the mother” Napoleon Boneparte

In every culture, country and religion, mother places integral part for every human’s life as their infinite love, struggle, and sacrifice is unreplaceable. In Islam, the prophet highlights the importance of the mother as it stated in hadits and Quran as it will be stated below

Prophet Muhammad said:
“May Allah's peace and blessings be upon him: Your Heaven lies under the feet of your mother.” (Ahmad, Nasai).
 “A man came to the Prophet and said, ‘O Messenger of God! Who among the people is the most worthy of my good companionship? The Prophet said: Your mother. The man said, ‘Then who?' The Prophet said: Then your mother. The man further asked, ‘Then who?' The Prophet said: Then your mother. The man asked again, ‘Then who?' The Prophet said: Then your father.” (Bukhari, Muslim).

The verses of the Qur’an that address the mother emphasize the difficulties of pregnancy, labor, and breastfeeding and the need to respect one’s mother. These verses many times mention parents in general but go into detail in regard to the mother because she faces challenges that a father does not. Moreover, the clearest examples of Islam's honoring women is the great status of the mother in Islam. Islam commands kindness, respect and obedience to parents and specifically emphasizes and gives preference to the mother as shall be shown in this article.
The command to be good to one's parents begins right from the Qur'an. Allah says:

"Worship God and join not any partners with Him; and be kind to your parents..." [Noble Quran 4:36

 Be kind to your parents, show them love, affection and piety, both in words and deeds, treat them with tender humility, provide for them and never harm them verbally nor physically. [...] Then, Allah mentions the reason why we should be kind to our parents, when He says {His mother bore him in travail upon travail}, that is, the mother bore constant suffering; in pain and hardship from the first moment she felt the child moving in her womb to the worst pangs during the time of delivery. And {his weaning is for two years}, that is, during these two years the mother breast-feeds her child and looks after him/her. So, after all the years of suffering, hardship, love and care, could we not, at least, compensate our mothers for what they have done for us and pay them back their right.

As a Moslem woman, I know that hadiths and Quran statement for long time ago. However, I never deeply realize it until I joined this course. Many past trauma and conflict came to me when I was in early stage of pregnancy, but I tried my best clear all of them by finishing all the session in this course as I want to be a better person I wanted.
 Step by step, I began to accept my condition, discover my inner strength, and felt grateful of all blessing in my life. Day by day, I begin to be more and more enthusiastic in everything I have done. I spend much time for pray, yoga, painting, laughing, meditation, exercise- whatever bring me joy and connect to my higher self. In addition, I’m making more connection and greater relationship with my womb baby by talking, singing, listening to music, massaging my belly, etc. I’m creating my family vision with my partner. I’m getting more sensitive to my body. And finally, I feel more alive and heart centered. I’m getting more sensitive to catch the inspiration and intuition surround me. “Motherhood is making me feel whole and connected to my spiritual responsibility. I feel a connection with the Goddess, the Earth, because I feel like I am becoming whole. It’s as if I have ‘stepped into myself’, it feels very strong. I recognize my inner power, it has been a journey of discovery, finding faith in my own power and stepping up to that therefore taking responsibility for myself and my baby. In the end, I reach the awareness of what I have been experienced is the most of precious journey which revealed my sacred spiritual spirit.
As a mother, whatever I’m facing today, no matter how unique my challenge is or feels, I’m never be alone.   I believe, there will always the way to give the best love for my children. As mother, I want to give my children a glimpse of their own strength, beauty and grace. I want them to see themselves, for a moment, through my eyes. To see themselves as strong and capable.  To feel the sense of accomplishment they've earned. I want to raise kids who can stand in their own truth and bend and sway to the music of life with dignity and purpose
In the end, the most important lesson of all is to enjoy the special moments of your pregnancy as it will lead you to prepare birth, and motherhood. No books, articles or courses can ever fully prepare you for being a mother but this journey of motherhood is the most incredible journey that you will ever undertake.

to see more artwork related to my project, you can check this link:
http://mirefasdiary.blogspot.co.id/2017/10/my-1st-trimester-story.html


Senin, 30 Oktober 2017

My 1st Trimester Story.

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Every Mom has her own unique and amazing story during the pregnancy, and that's my story illustrated by my imperfect rough drawing just to express my first experiences of being a mother to-be. 














My Journey Using Art, Visual and Written Words, as a Healing Tool

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My name is Emiria and I am from Indonesia. I'm an artist.  I have had a strong interest in art since I was a child, drawing since approximately at 4 years old and writing journal at 7 years old. I love art from inside my heart. Through art, I learned how to be creative, open-minded, responsible, patient, persistent, and confident. The most important thing is art helped me in my self-transformation process. Like the metamorphosis of a butterfly, art helps me to deeply understand myself--who I am, who I want to be in the future. 
First, Art helped me to find self-identity in adolescent stage.  There was a moment when I felt everything was all right. My life was okay, everything seemed to run well, and I got things that I had expected. In that phase, I already lead my life under a self-fulfilling prophecy, the other’s belief and expectation that has been holding me since I was born. I realized it was totally false. At that time, I often had written daily journal just to express my thought and feeling. Writing journal has opened communication between you and your inner self. You try to be honest to yourself. The more you write, the more you can hear the voice of yourself that gives an answer, an inspiration and a guidance to solve your problems. Day by day, your awareness has improved to catch the all intuition surround you.  Until one day, I finally realized that I cannot deny to myself that it is not what I want to be, to be someone who directed by the other even your parents. So, I needed to prove them that I have to be myself, I had to get out of my comfort zone, dare to take a risk, dare to be different, ignore what people say, which it is impossible for me to reach my dream and confidently go my way.  
When I was in early  adulthood stage,  the process of change was  getting more difficult. I felt I was in life crisis. I often felt in bad temper, angry with myself, blamed the situation, because I did not know what I should do. That is why I used art as a therapy to express my feeling. Self-expression in art can be seen from my painting, “Merbabu”, inspired by my first experience in hiking Merbabu Mountain, one of the famous volcanic mountains in Indonesia.  It was a great experience for me as I saw God’s real painting with my own two eyes which made me feel curious to replicate it on a canvas. I feel the same way or pattern in every time I have to express myself through art, it always starts from negative point first, the darkest side or figure in ourselves that want to be revealed and released, our inner critics and irrational beliefs, anger and sadness,  negative thoughts and feelings, and worries and anxieties, and all bad stuffs that seems permanently  stuck in my mind and soul which hide and lock my inner self. So, in the beginning of the painting,  I poured all the black paint out, and Boom,  letting me express my anger and any negative emotion until I felt more relaxed. My step-by-step struggle to finish what I had started was therapeutic, although I thought completing it was totally impossible. Finally, I achieved the result I wanted. 







The most important lesson I have got is we need to appreciate the process. Realize or not, in this moment, most of people in the world tends to think instantly, the fastest way to get things what they want without considering the effect whether is good or not for his/her life even the other. They ignore the art of hard work to be a successful person.  However, in art, we respect the process of making a masterpiece artwork.  Although, there's a time when we fail to make a perfect illustration we wanted, our belief, patient, persistent, commitment form a spontaneously creative action which makes the final result meet our self-satisfaction.

-Every time I force myself, I open an opportunity for my best of me to come out-

Art is not just expressing your true feelings, but also pursuing your real desire. Inspired by the quote of The Secret movie-- The law attraction is working in every second, everything we think ad we feel is creating our future, I used art as a perfect tool to visualize my dream, to attract romantic love, getting married with someone I trust. Actually, there was the time that I thought love was so impossible for me. I found struggles in having relationships, since the real my love experiences never gave me any good news because of trauma of past experiences. I just wondered what happened and try to talk to my inner self what’s wrong with me? One day, Unexpectedly, I saw all the art works I have made.  Then I realized that something was wrong in my works of art, which coincidentally never attracted love. This idea came as I observed one of my works called “The Flower Garden” which continued from my previous painting, Merbabu. That painting was zoomed- in version from the last version of “Merbabu” painting. Based I found on the colour and the whole theme of the work, it showed a loneliness and emptiness hidden within the bright beautiful blooming flowers. It also showed the complexity of the technique.







Since that moment, I tried to forgive the past. Even if there were a dozen painful love experiences, there will always be a silver lining to it. That is the perfect plan that God made for me for certain reason that I had to find. Then, I began to find a hope, any kind of possibilities that make it come true. I had to reflect on myself, find inner beauty in me if I wanted to discover a better and perfect result. So, I decided to make a set of artworks in which the theme was inner beauty and hope, started in early July 2016 as art therapy. 
I totally enjoyed the process of creating artwork.  It felt like I was totally in it. At a certain point, it gave me power to believe that someday there will be someone who will come into my life. Through art, I began to be aware that, “You have to go confidently to the direction of your dream. Live the life that you have imagined!” Finally, I did not have to wait for so long, only few days passed, and God answered my prayer in an unexpected way. I met Someone a truly wonderful person in early August 2016 came to my life in early August 2016 and proposed to marry me short after.  On 29 January 2017, we were married. I am thankful of my life for everything that happens, thank you God for everything.
At the end, as the transformation of the simple caterpillar into a butterfly, the human being undergoes an equally dramatic transformation. It is kind of a great journey full of struggle to increase my awareness and find the depths of my soul, though its deeper meaning would await discovery through experience.  Art helped me to express myself and taught me how to be creative, confident, and persistent. I personally think that art can function as self-therapy and helps to develop a person’s personality. Therefore, I want to be an art therapist. I believe, in my role as, I will be able to help other people in finding relief from overwhelming emotions or trauma. At present, only few places that practicing art therapy exist in Indonesia. I also hardly found institutions that offer art therapy courses.
I am also actively involved in the art community since 2014, in which I have the ability to exhibit my artwork. I have joined a local art community as Coordinator of the Education Division since 2015. The main responsibility is to organize events, such as, internal and external workshops for profit and social charity purposes. Working Involvement with for this community has given provide me the opportunity to meet and interact with inspirational people, both artists and non-artists. Based on my discussion with them I found out, I find that many they people are keen to explore and analyse art from a psychology perspective. They believe by learning the artwork, they will understand more about person’s personality and perspective.
I am excited to further study Healing with art Course provide by Florida University. I believe the program could offer a great opportunity to expand my knowledge which will support my future career.

Sincerely,


Emiria Farahdina

My Gratitude Statement

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Before I joined the course, I thought that I’m not rich or wealthy person. However, the perspective changed significantly when I follow all the process in this course. In the end of the course session, I’m getting more realized that happiness is not depend on how much material or visible things you have, such as, how much money you have, how many your car, how many your expensive and luxury stuffs, how many time you traveling abroad and so on. In contrast, you feel happy in every time you grateful of every little thing you have, visible and invisible one.
So, from this moment on, I have strong desire to feel happy in every single blessing of my life. I forget self-comparison with the other and more focus on myself since I believe in our ability to decide whether we want to be sad or happy. I want to declare gratitude statements since I’m thankful of My life. God gives me countless bless in every moment of my day; fresh air to breath, health, love, protection, guidance, inspiration, many more that we can’t mention. 
  • §  I’m thankful to have a lovely family; kind-hearted husband, wise parents, Mama Bapa, kind parents in law, Ibu Ayah, caring siblings, Aa teteh, cheerful brother, sister in law, nephew, and A Dhonny  Ayumi,  Najib, Apip, Nida, Ruri, Vidaa, Neo, and Ade Lily.
    §  I’m thankful to have kind and helpful people surround me.
    §  I’m thankful to be a wife for my lovely husband who always support me through bad and good time.
    §  I’m thankful of having a great chance to be a mother soon.
    §  I’m thankful of skill and ability that God gives me to me.
    §  I’m thankful of every food I eat.
    §  I’m thankful of every special moment I have which teaches me precious lesson.
    §  I’m thankful of every special gift that I have got from both expected and unexpected way.
    §  I’m thankful of every meaningful lesson I have got whenever I made a mistake.
    §  I’m thankful of every opportunity I have got to be better person than before.
    §  I’m thankful of my ability which I can learn anything by myself independently.
    §  I’m thankful of every quality time I spent for myself, my family, my friends and my future.
    §  I’m thankful of every enjoyment in both personal and social life.
    §  I’m thankful of being born in this world.
    §  I’m thankful of every artwork, pictures, writing I have done to express my thought and feeling in order to maintain my mental health.
    §  I’m thankful of every chance I have to share with the other people.
    §  I’m thankful of every help and kindness I have got from the other both direct and indirectly by expected and unexpected way.
    §  I’m thankful of every inspiration and intuition I have got from everything surround me.
    §  I’m thankful of every creativity that lead me to create an incredible innovation.
    §  I’m thankful of every laughter to cheers my day.
    §  I’m thankful of every positive thought, feeling, and energy which come from inside of outside to keep me strong even when I’m down.
    §  I’m thankful of every decision I have made for my own kindness.
    §  I’m thankful of every experience I have in my life.
    §  I’m thankful of every confident I have to be myself.
    §  I’m thankful of every sensitivity to hear the voice of my heart.
    §  I’m thankful of everything I have done with love, struggle, and patient.
    §  I’m thankful of every indescribable spiritual journey I have through it all in achieving my inner peace.
    §  I’m thankful of every simple exercise I have done to maintain my physical endurance
    §  I’m thankful of every single happiness in everyday of my life.
In the end, I become aware that there are so many things to be grateful of and the most important thing I’m grateful of my life no matter what.

Thank you,

Emiria



A Gratitude Letter for Mama and Bapa (Mom and Dad)

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Dear Mama and Bapa, 
It’s me, Emi, you used to call me Dede (the name for the youngest child or for children). Time after time, slow but sure, I’m growing up. There’s no reason that you call me “Dede” anymore, so you changed it into “Tami” (Tante Emi or Aunty Emi). At this point in my life, I’m considered an adult. Yes, maybe sometimes I don’t completely act like it, right? As a young adult, I have just realized how much you did for me by your endless and countless love. As I will start to be a parent soon, I have become aware much you both mean to me. So, In this letter, I want to say thank you. Thank you for everything you've done to me. 

Mama, Bapa, Thank you
Thank you for your prayer, I know you always pray the best for me. You have spent your precious time, begging to the Lord while you crying and mentioning my name for endless wish, hope, and kindness that guide me in leading on my way. 

Mama, Bapa, Thank you
Thank you for your endless and countless amounts of love. As like as a lighthouse which lightening the darkness, your love strengthens me whenever I’m down. Thank you for your cheers. Your smile making me laugh when I'm sad and I’m alone

Mama, Bapa, Thank you
Thank you for sacrifice your quality time and energy. You working so, so, so hard to be able give every child deserve even you have to forget and sacrifice your own need only for me. You always be the one who therefore me through the good and bad times, to carry and understand me when anyone can’t do. That’s mean a lot for me.

Mama, Bapa, Thank you
Thank you for your wisdom, which carry and protect me on whenever I choose the wrong path and when I make some mistakes. You give me the best advice when I don’t even know what happen to me and what should I do. Although you are protective parents, you know the best moment when you give a fully trust and best support when I have to go confidently choose the right and important decision for my life.

Mama, Bapa, Thank you
In the end, I know you're not perfect figures, but for me, you will always be perfect parents, the wonderful roles that I want to be follow whenever I have children.  There are not enough words to describe how thankful I am to the both of you. I know I don't show how grateful I am enough, but I really am. You both have taught me so much, A million or even billion  words of gratitude is still not enough to express your love since you've given me an unlimited power of love. 

Thank you, Mama and Bapa 



Sincerely,


Emiria

I Love you


My Journal, Mandala, and Collages: My New Life

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I’m trying to focus on my pregnancy
Focus on my new life with my lovely husband
I’m preparing to be a great mother
I’m having great collaboration with my husband to be the great parents for my children







My Journal; Let Me Express My Self

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There was a time when I felt so angry with everyone surround me
There was a time when I felt so fed up with my self
I blamed the condition
I blamed my past
I couldn’t accept my self

I needed to get out all of them and let them go
Let all the negative emotion, thought and feeling gone

I just wanted to be free
Add more positive energy and gratitude in my life








 

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